Wednesday, 19 March 2014
Dear Friends, From Me to You x
To our dear friends,
You all as individuals are inspiring, strong and wonderful people.
I do not tell you I appreciate you enough.
I do, I really do, it's just that...
I need to shrink away, just for a while, just till I feel like my bubbles are back, that I am able to function again.
I ramble, I drift off mid sentence.
I am aware I am like this, I am sorry.
I am embarrassed actually.
But be patient with me,
I am struggling.
I don't necessarily want to talk about it.
There's not anything I haven't already talked about, or things that haven't already been said,
Sometimes I just need to sit with this.
It might unleash a monster in me of resentment and bitterness, and that monster doesn't need to be unleashed, I just need to get myself under control a bit again, feel gratitude warm my core, from outside in, then I will be able to hang out again.
I will try and find excuses, not because I don't want to be with you, but I just don't feel I can at the moment.
I don't want to feel like this,
So I want to shut myself away till it has gone away again and my smile is not so fake.
I do make a real effort, but in all honesty, I cannot even really be bothered to do that at the moment!
I just have this need to hide.
So I am sorry and thank you for being patient with me.
From your friend,
Posted by Manic Mum at 22:27