October 7th 2012
I flick the switch of the kettle, on maybe my 18th cup of the day! My eye is caught, on my cream bread bin there is the most beautiful, bright green grasshopper. It doesn’t move, just sits there, clinging to the bread bin, I feel it looking at me-seriously! It’s eyes red, and the brightness of the green, I felt like it was trying to tell me something. I know this can be dismissed, but personally I do sometimes feel that passing scenes, skies, random sightings of creatures, people passing at just the right time, I do believe there is a significance in this, someone trying to break through and speak to us.
The grass hopper stayed put as I ran to get my camera. It stayed put for the photos, and I eventually picked it up very gently and squished it…Joking…I placed it back outside on the grass.
I looked up the symbology of grasshoppers, and this is what I found:
Grasshopper Symbology -- The grasshopper is associated with astral travel. They have the ability to leap through time and into space where the true mysteries of life exist. People with this medicine have the wisdom necessary to overcome obstacles efficiently and are able to jump into successful ventures without preparation or planning. When the grasshopper appears to us we are being asked to take a leap of faith and jump forward into a specific area of life without fear.Grasshoppers can only jump forward....not backward, or sideways. So, when grasshopper shows up he could be reaffirming to you that you are taking the right steps to move forward in your current situation. Or it could be that he is telling you to go ahead and move forward, getting past what is hindering you. This is why grasshopper is the symbol of good luck all over the world. Grasshopper's ability to connect and understand sound vibrations is why he is also a symbol of your inner voice. He could be telling you to trust yours.
I speak often of this situation being somewhere we have no idea where it will lead. We have no idea how we will get there, or even what it is we are heading for. This has taken all my faith, belief and hope to get thus far.
I found this a great comfort reading this, I have felt very much recently that I have to trust what I believe is best for you, Alex, no matter how I hard I have to fight to get that.
Autumn is your favourite time of year. It holds the most beautiful memories for me too. Walking against the sharp winds, watching breath cloud ahead of you. Hands in gloves, red cheeks. Crunching of leaves, in their red, gold, yellow, brown hues. The evenings are the cosy ones, where you get in and warm up. Heating on, hot chocolate time, smells of cooking and hot soapy bubble baths. Those dog walks we would go on, wrapped up and ready to brace the fresh air.
You never cared about clothes, you didn’t have a coat warm enough, just piled on the hoodies! I remember the layers to keep you warm.
When I see you now, I wish more than anything we could go out for a walk.
Those Autumn days; what beautiful memories.
And my grasshopper, what a reminder to carry on, trusting in what I believe is right, taking a leap of faith and believing in more healing…
‘Without fear’ this clearly comes through too. If we trust, we don’t need to fear. I do feel scared quite a lot, because you were just so much my protector. But I have to do this without you doing this for me, so I have no choice!
See you in the morning my baby,