Monday, 12 May 2014
Dear Alex, Is This the End?
I am not sure where this blog is going anymore.
I am not finding it gives me what it always has done.
A cathartic way of expending energies I cannot articulate to you.
An evening space.
Tears shed as I share with you in the only way I can.
I feel it is coming to the end.
I have so many other areas I need to be focussing my energies.
Other areas I want to focus on, Making Waves for You as a Charity, the kids are rapidly growing and do so many clubs these days, commitments and less time than ever.
I visit you everyday, bar one or two. That will never change.
I miss you as much as I always have and always will.
But maybe I don't need 'this' space anymore to talk to you.
I feel I have nothing to say.
And that, then, makes me think that maybe that in itself is telling me something?
I just need to be, do, live, accept for a while?
That I cannot place my thoughts here, they belong with me and me only?
Maybe this is the end?
I am not 'feeling' my blog anymore.
I will have to see.
I will have to think.
I have been feeling this way for some time now.
I will maybe move on from this, move away from it, focus on other things?
I will continue to write to you privately.
Maybe I just a break from it.
See you in the morning angel,
Posted by Manic Mum at 21:04